I had a revelation today.
This whole time I have been thinking that in order to find happiness I must be happy all the time, and for no real reason. I just have to try and force all bad moods to stop in their tracks, turn around and head back to where they came from.
But oppressing bad feelings is actually bad. I mean, ranting and yelling like a madman all the time isn't really the most beneficial or healthy way to live either, but concealing how you feel is not the way to go. However, if you were like, at a wedding or something, and you found out your dog died, you might want to try and conceal your sadness for just the wedding ceremony. If it was your wedding, well, then that day would just be a hot mess.
Today was sort of a slow day, and I, still being sick, was pretty sluggish and under a generally lardy spell. I was sort of depressed, as in bored and tired depressed, as well as being irritated. But luckily Shea got all his shots and he isn't sick anymore, and he is nice and happy.
It's important to know that there is no way that any normal human can be naturally happy all the time and that there are times that, for an assortment of reasons, we do not feel gleeful. But it's important to not stay sad, depressed, guilty, angry, or anguished.
In order to do this, you have to find your own ray of sunshine. Find something funny, something happy, something fun, that will switch your gears from rainy to sunny. Mine was hanging with my cute little kitty and watching him play with a dice from Yahtzee (really it's a 'die' but that just sounds strange). Sometimes amidst unhappiness, you can find that little things that would otherwise not phase you make you quite happy. Like if you were having a bad day and someone complimented your shirt, you would appreciate it more than if you were already having a great day. Depending on your mood, the comment could be left by the bay or taken to heart and treasured. So in a way, sadness is a foil for happiness, making the little things count that much more. It's emotion math. Something else negates something else, sort of, and then yeah. Actually that doesn't sound very mathematically, but oh well.
To conclude, I wish to send a prayer to all people, commoners and politicians, who were wounded, killed, or witnessed the event this morning in Arizona. I pray that the critically injured will recover and that the families who lost a friend or family member can somehow cope with the grief. As many members of Congress have said, "this is a sad day for our country."
I hope that someday our world can learn to accept and love.